One of These Days

One of these days, I need to get my act together... 

Patience may be a virtue but time is of the essence. 

One of these days, I would have to start my life over... 

Back to square one but it will be for the better. 

One of these days, life will only get harder...

But then again, anything worth having is tantamount to a higher amount of sacrifice and suffering because... 

One of these days, I will both have my reunion and my first meeting...

I want to. I have to. Together with both of my forevers.

-Chady

I Wish

I wish I could have met you myself...
Is something I always say to myself whenever I see your picture. 

I wish I can be as good & amazing like you...
Your smile always lights up a room and I was told we share the same laugh.

I wish I could say I don't feel jealous...
Because all I have is stories of you and I don't get to be a part of any.

I wish you were still here...
Not only do I get my own story to brag about, you get to settle any dispute in a flash. I could have learned a lot from you. 

I wish you didn't go away so suddenly...
Everyone still needed you but maybe life has its reasons and it needed you for a greater purpose. 

I wish you the best in everything...
In my heart, I know you are as lively and  adventurous as ever. 

I wish you inner peace and joy...
I promise I'm doing my best to love and protect this family the very best I could. 

I wish you Love...
Because I know you are always guiding us wherever you might be and I am forever thankful. 

I wish you a Happy Birthday...
You are and will always be a star in our lives. 

-Chady

LDD Entry 2

When you're in long distance, you can't really gauge how you are as a dad most especially if you haven't met your kids yet.  Everyday you can only hope that you can set a good example for your child and that someday they can proudly say "that's my dad." Everyday you have to believe that although you might not be there physically, your presence is enough regardless if they are aware or not. Integrity is often not seen but it is empowering to your soul. Draw positive energy from great things and great people.

I am fortunate enough to have an amazing partner. She looks out for our son and goes above and beyond. Not a day goes by where I always thank the powers above for her presence in our lives. She is a blessing.
And speaking of,
You have to count your blessings. Reality will often be a dick. Life's like that. But you don't have to be. No matter how much hatred and despair there is, you cannot be resentful. The world has too much of that.

Making love the core of your existence goes a long way. Love your family and friends for the good they bring in your life. Forgive whatever wrong has been done. Pray for the well being of not only yourself but for everyone. In a world where everything is changing and the future is uncertain, be kind. Because that's what you want as a foundation for your kids. And that's what you want your child to be.

-Chady

Silent Prayer

I hope I can love you for the longest time.

Despite sounding dangerously close to that infamous line from Stanley Kubrick's Full Metal Jacket (1987), I like to repeat this line to myself in times of solitude.  A silent prayer, if you will.

It's not that I am afraid of falling out of love with you...
Or that I am expecting something bad would happen...

It's a hopeful wish that I would want to do for the rest of our lives together.
Disregarding semantics of sentimental love for the time being, I'm very thankful though we have great chemistry together and I love the commitment we have for each other. We are approaching yet another chapter in our lives and frankly, I'd like to spend the rest of it with the best of it. By best I mean you hehe.

You make everything better. You embody the ideas of love and romance I've always yearned for.
I am yours and you are mine to keep. I have so much faith and trust in you and in us it's doing a balancing act between noble and foolhardy. and (no surprise) it's trudging along nicely. Sure, we've had our fights. We will have some more even and yet,
I wouldn't have it any other way. I believe in the love that we have. We may suffer at times but let me tell you one thing, I am very satisfied with my life. I have something to live for. To look forward to.



-Chady

Long Distance Dad Entry 1 (of many? :D )

I have yet to hold my son in my arms and it makes me both lonely and excited.

As soon as our plans were coming into fruition, I knew we were going to be apart for a while and no matter what I say to myself for reassurance, there is no preparing for the challenges to face as a long distance dad.

There are times where it is frustrating because all you want to do is help and be there for them but sadly that cannot be the case. Sometimes there will be arguments that may cause tension but above else, our son will always be the source of strength and happiness for us. Maintaining this emotional bond and showing them care and affection is very important.

We are, in a way, in a long distance relationship for the long run. And keeping (and maintaining) a long distance relationship is never easy – it requires a huge amount of effort. Understanding the issues and being supportive at a time when they need you (or don't at all) is the foundation of a healthy relationship. 


-Chady