Accepting.

So my new year literally started with a bang...to my heart. My girlfriend broke up with me two days after new year because she needed to focus on her career, future and all other essential stuff. Being the dumpee, I questioned if I did anything wrong, to which she replied "No." I also asked if she found someone else and she also replied "No." Desperate for answers, I just wanted to know why she wanted it to end. I really  wanted to save our relationship because we've being going out for awhile now (around three years) and that's a long time folks but I understand (now) that it's just hard...with our current state.

Our current state being in a long distance relationship.

LDR's are very difficult and require a lot of sacrifice on both ends. I guess it just took too much of her focus  and she had to let go of me to do the stuff she needed to do. Of course, I could not accept this at first. It was unfair. I didn't see it coming. It was a major SHOCK for me. If you're familiar with the five stages of grief and I assume you guys are also aware of the seven stages of breaking up.(Look/Google it up.)  

So after the shock, came DENIAL. To be honest, my stages are in the wrong order and some are grouped together because I felt denial, ANGER and BARGAINING all at the same time. I wanted her back. Plain and simple. I tried talking to her again but she won't answer my calls. I thought of a thousand scenarios what I could do, what I should have done and what I should be doing but then again, the LDR state looms up again and smites down any plans you have.

Fortunately for me, I have the best family and set of friends to help me understand and process all the stuff going on. I gave it time, thought about the whole thing and made the proper move. Thankfully, she replied a few days later and we decided it was the best for the both of us.

Now, I'm still healing and currently in the ISOLATION/DEPRESSION stage but with the closure she gave me and my famfriends support, I am moving towards ACCEPTANCE.

Peace out
-Chady